Holy Crap Sandwich, Batman! We've got a problem!

It's no secret to most everyone I know that my husband and I are living with my parents currently. This was a move made after dear husband lost his job at the end of July (might I add he was let go on his birthday which was 2 days before MY birthday, oh happy day) and we have since been renting our house to a family friend. Since then, I can say that time has passed relatively swiftly and we have no major complaints living with the folks. That being said..... I miss my own house. I miss it so terribly! However, since the aforementioned loss of job we have not been able to make it back to our previous financial state. DH has found another full time job, but in the process he had to get rid of the part time job to accomadate the new full time job hours. Also, due to my upcoming Nursing school schedule, I had to switch to a day shift position at work. This comes with a loss of my night differential and means a loss of roughly $180 per month.

So if you've been following along with me- we are now down substantially from our pre-job loss status and still unable to move back into our home. Don't get me wrong, I am super glad that things worked out and we have someone paying the mortgage by living in our place. I just can't shake the feeling that we are a burden on my parents and they probably have the same "can't we just have our house back" sentiment that we do. I just keep reminding myself that things will get better. I am sacrificing all of these things to make a better life possible. To make these sorts of feelings and blogs obsolete. Never again will I have to rely on anyone but myself for anything financial. I will be able to provide a stress free (financially anyways) life for DH, myself, and our future children. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. With one year of nursing school down, and 2 semesters left to go- I can see it!!!!!

On a lighter note, I had my very last lecture of the semester today. All that I have left are 5 exams and I will be done for the year! It feels so good to say that. Our instructors weren't lying when they said that it would go by so much faster than any of us realized. Also, tonight I am planning on starting an IV on Dad. Haha, he doesn't even know what's coming! J/k- I'm pretty sure it wont be too bad.

We need a little Christmas, Right this very minute!! Warning, mildly offensive...

So, I have noticed a disturbing trend this year. I guess I should restate that. I have seen a disturbing trend since I have been an adult, every single year around this time. This is probably redundant because everyone complains about the same thing every year, but it just really has gotten to me this time.

Why does a retail store need to be open on Thanksgiving DAY to cater to people trying to purchase items for Christmas (a holiday that is not "supposed" to be about gifts)? Did anyone ever stop to think about the families of the people who have to work at those stores? No, the primary focus of their actions is getting the best deal. This is sadly a product of our society. A consumer driven, almighty dollar society. All that really seems to matter anymore is what we own. Not who we love and those that we are fortunate enough to have love us back.

I have managed to purchase 1 gift so far this season and I am in no hurry to get out and buy more. I love the Christmas season, but this year I just cant seem to get myself in the "mood". Could it be that I am just too emotionally and physically drained after a year straight of Nursing school? Yeah, more than likely. Do I really care that I am not humming Christmas carols and wrapping gifts? No, not really.

What I can say I give a crap about these days is passing the 5 more exams I have standing between me and my Christmas day, paying my bills, and being with my family. Sad to see that the exams were at the top of my priority list. I do not apologize though. Those that really love me and want what's best for me will understand. Actually, let me rephrase that. They may not fully understand but they at least tolerate my more than usual odd behaviors. I always thought that when people who were/are in Nursing school would talk about how hard it was or how much stress they were under, they were completely over stating the topic. Boy, I had no freakin' clue!

Enough about all of that business. It was not my intent to go into a tirade about how sucky my life seems these days. I have too many blessings to count, so I really have nothing REAL to complain about. I just find it necessary to throw a little pity party every now and then!
Wow, why on earth would anyone continue reading this. I feel like I am pretty damn boring these days. Moving on...... I plan to continue to update this blog occasionally considering that the internet seems to be my only way to reach out to the rest of the world that I never see anymore. Maybe the next one will be a bit more upbeat!

Merry F'ing Christmas Everyone!!! Go buy some crap!